I have come to realize I don’t know how to recognize success. I often hear people talking about the importance of celebrating small wins, and yet I don’t do it. It’s easier to create another goal, to push towards something else and not even notice what I have just accomplished. And they don’t have to be big goals. To stop and pat myself in the back seems undeserving. I just immediately tell myself, “oh, that was not big deal”. I hear the congrats from others but I don’t hear my inner congratulations. I’m hard on myself but to fail to recognize when I get something right is scary. What if I get to accomplish many things and fail to see all of them? What if I can’t recognize success? Isn’t that what all efforts are for? And maybe I could miss it? It’s beyond the ability to describe what success is. Is success fame, money, recognition, freedom? A combination of all? I think it’s a moment of pride. A moment when you can look at yourself and say, you did it. You actually did it. I’m proud of myself. That moment. It probably only lasts a bit. But in order to see it and more importantly, feel it, I need awareness and time. Working hard while leaving time for pondering. I want to feel my small success, so they can motivate me to go further. I think it’s a daily exercise, but one worth doing. Or maybe looking for this moment is not the important exercise, but to learn to truly let go of it?
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