How does one go about making big life decision without tearing his soul apart first? Why do I find making decisions harder than the people around me? I tend to put pressure on the decision that doesn’t only need to be the right one but the perfect one. No regrets is always the goal. I know all the rational reasons why perfection doesn’t exist. I know we can’t know what the future holds and we can’t control everything. But should we let go of all plans then? Don’t people save their money for retirement even though they know they might never live that long? How to plan for an unknown future is the most difficult part of being a human being, in my opinion. We understand enough about life but we don’t know what will happen tomorrow. But still, we must prepare. How challenging. The challenge comes from having options. Sometimes too many of them, but other times just the simple yes or no can be difficult enough to side with. The older I get I seem to take longer to make my decisions, all the weight of my current knowledge and past experiences pondering in my head, like a machine trying to solve a puzzle. Often times I want to trust my gut, that feeling we have if something is right. But what if all we feel is nauseas? Nervousness? How can we put the weight of a responsible decision in our physical bodies? I wonder how judges are able to keep with one decision after another without feeling so drained by the end of the day. Do they completely detach their personal feelings and thoughts and go with what seems best according to reason or law? All those feelings are at the surface today because I’m making changes to the business, actually not really changes but choices. I’m making them by trusting my reasons, my wants and my feelings, so at least I can check all boxes. I just want to avoid at all costs to be paralyzed by indecision, staying still, waiting for the right thing to just come to mind. Nothing good comes from staying inert.
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