I have been thinking about something that I am not sure if I should share it here. But I promised myself this would be a place to be honest, regardless of what people might think or say of me. And by no means I claim to be perfect, I can totally make mistakes. Therefore if you think I am crazy stupid by the end of this I hope you remember I am not saying I’m right either.
The idea that we all expect the best and get upset when it doesn’t come to us seems a bit insane. How can we all expect to become successful? How can we all expect to live long? Is that hope or not accepting reality? Is that positivity or weakness? Will Earth ever be a place where we all get equal lives? Can we eliminate accidents forever? Even if we eliminate diseases, accidents will still happen right? I know it’s a deep topic and it probably would take many pages to discuss it, and I don’t think there is a specific answer waiting at the end of it. I just have come to realize that this blind expectation leads to depression and lack of logic thinking.
Let me give you a simple example, sometimes we start business ideas, put all our savings into it, work all hours to make it work, and sometimes we fail. The idea that every business venture will work is crazy, and it’s not that the entrepreneur doesn’t think it can happen, he just thinks probably it won’t happen to him. But sometimes we think just because we worked so hard that we “deserve” to win. When fairness isn’t at play here. Training hard doesn’t guarantee wins in sports, why should it be that way in life? It doesn’t matter that you created an amazing book, or that you put 10,000 hours into something. There are no guarantees in life, we all “deserve” but we won’t all get it. Some may add religion right here, beliefs that things happen for specific reasons. I don’t want to include religion or belief in this post, because it’s not what this is about. I’m not disregarding it either. I want to jump to a different segment. Logic. If by logic we take a step back from ourselves, and see the situation as a whole, as the entire planet, as in a case study, we will obviously realize that many will fail, many will die, many things won’t be given to many people. And I don’t want this post to be depressing, sad or dark. The opposite.
If we can go about life and put our logic glasses on, maybe we will get hurt less, expect less and make better decisions. Emotions are important, intuition too, but so is logic. Rationalize something, find out the facts, study, maybe we need to do more of that. Expect that every product, art piece or written post we create will be popular is ludicrous. And not that the making of something is only worth if it becomes popular or successful, it’s ok to create something if the sole reason is, you want to. And that’s where I want to get at.
As I mentioned before, I am in the middle of writing my book, and sometimes I catch myself without any doubt, thinking it will be a best seller. But I can’t know that. And it’s not about being negative, shutting my fears down, it’s about getting to the core of reason. Even if no one ever reads the book, I need to write it. The story has become so important to me, the characters are so much alive in my mind, that I need to put it out in the world, without any expectations. Because if I do take in logic, the chances of the book ever being published (instead of self published) is already really small, and I don’t want or need to be crushed in the end. I can avoid this pain. I gotta hold on to my reason for writing it, because I need to. Because I enjoy writing. Not because I want to be a successful author. And if I can remind myself of that, whatever happens in the end won’t affect me. The success here is finishing it. And that, I can control.
Thanks for reading.