Todays is one of those days where I can’t seem to catch up with my to do list. I’m really trying to take a step back from all and figure out priorities. Editing down my goals is something I struggle with. I’m not sure if I should blame my ambition or lack of being realistic. I over plan which results into being overwhelmed and rushing to get things done, a recipe for disaster. I am completely aware of the problem but I still find myself adding more and more to my plate, sometimes I do it slowly and I only realize when I’m in the middle of a breakdown. This blog? Definitely added to the top of all the other things I want to spend my time doing. Balance is another topic I need to go further into, because adding too many business ideas leads to no time for a personal life, something I struggle with too. But I guess for today’s post let me test my focus and stick to prioritization.
How does one go from: this is all I want to do to rating the things and then being ok with letting some of them go? Is it a matter of one thing at a time? Is it a matter of wanting too much? Or just not wanting to be uncomfortable with giving up on something? Why do things seem equally important? Am I not getting to the bottom of them and on the surface they do feel similar in importance? Because like most people, I don’t have completely freedom to do whatever I want. We all have responsibilities, bills to pay, family and friends, events, life. So when it comes to choosing how we are going to spend the little “free time” we have, we need to be ruthless. We need to be strict and able to say, this is what matters most, so this is where I am going to focus my time on. And this is where the problem begins for me. I try to blame on the fact that I am a libra and my inability to make decisions.
Overthinking, overanalyzing leads to procrastination on finally making a decision. Just pick something for god-sake, I tell myself daily. From simply choosing an item in the menu to how I’m going to spend my time to grow my career. The entire spectrum, I struggle. I fight it. And that leads to, I don’t make a decision. I pick both items in the menu. I add both to my calendar. The cycle continues.
I am committed to getting better at this. Do I want to create a portfolio or an online class? Do I want to write a book or my blog? Do I want to use ink or watercolor? Do I want to feel full or lose weight? …
Right after I finish this, I am sitting down and picking ONE thing to focus on my “free time” AKA Sundays. Wish me luck!
Thanks for reading.