Letting Go

A nyone else out there a control freak? What is the right balance between taking charge and surrendering? Yes there are things we can’t control in life but there are lots that we can. I believe we must do our part and the universe/ life will do theirs.

Photo by  seth schwiet

Photo by seth schwiet

But we must still give our absolute best, and so far, this philosophy has helped me get all the things I really wanted/ wished for. No, my life isn’t perfect and there is plenty I still want but I have gotten here with a combination of hard work and yes, I have also been very fortunate.

I don’t see trying to control things or being responsible as unrealistic, I really think life is about personal growth and to grow you must learn, try, fail, try again, but always giving your best (especially if want to speed up the process a bit). But I do also practice meditation to remind me that I’m not in control of everything, that I must always adapt to new situations and adjust at every step. Those things come to me as challenges but all part of the process. Anyway, it’s a weird post today.

Thanks for reading.

B.

To sleep or not to sleep

I love and need my sleep. No question. But I struggle to find the right amount. I naturally believe that waking up with an alarm clock seems unnatural and probably isn’t the healthiest way to start the day. I think we all have our internal clock and our bodies should know when to wake up by themselves. Living without an alarm clock may seem crazy for lots of people, otherwise they would be late for work or appointments. But since I’m a morning person, I got to bed very early, around 9pm and waking up early happens naturally then, leaving plenty of time to get things done in the morning, and of course, I’m lucky to work from home.

Photo by  David Mao

Photo by David Mao

I do think the secret is to go to bed early, waking up early doesn’t seem weird or difficult at all if you get enough sleep. How much is enough sleep? I think that’s also why I don’t agree with alarm clocks, probably on a day I did a lot of exercise I will need a bit more rest than days I stayed home working all day. I like to leave my body to tell me how long I should sleep for, averaging between 7-10 hours. I also see the sun in the summer so early that it naturally wakes me up too. But here is the trick part for me, if I sleep too much, meaning, I’m awake but I told myself is ok to stay in bed longer, I get a headache behind my eye that will last all day. I also think it’s normal to wake up feeling a bit out of it, sleepy, independent of how many hours you slept, but after 30 minutes that goes away. I don’t need caffeine to wake up either, even though I love a cup of coffee and tea, I switched to decaf, it’s all about the ritual for me, not the caffeine. Some phases in our lives we will be able to sleep more or less, I barely slept from 19 to 26 years old because of college and working in the film industry, but it was not an optional phase of my life, now that it is, I’m savoring it. I’m sure once we start to having kids this will get hard again until they sleep well too. There are so many reasons to why sleep is important, I’m sure you can find it easy with a google search. I’m here mostly to advocate to listen to your body as much as possible and try to get on a sleep routine where you don’t need a crazy noise to welcome you to another day.

Thanks for reading.

B.

Catching Up

I t’s been a while, I know. If you asked me why I stopped posting this past month I would have to stop and think. The reality is I’m not sure why. Life got busier and I got lazier. I traveled pretty much every weekend for the past 5-6 weeks. It’s been a busy summer but also I have been really out of my routine. My anxiety and stress grew a lot too. I really don’t do well without my routines to keep me grounded. My diet and exercise habits got lost, my journaling and meditation practices completely gone, and with that the habits of writing here too. I can’t explain how much I miss writing. I even miss my artwork, I have only been doing the bare minimum to keep things afloat.

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But I’m desperate to get back to my normal self. I still have two trips planned in the next couple weeks but after that I’m planning on staying home for the majority of the rest of the year. We have lots of plans to do around the house, including a major declutter and yard sale. I also have a million projects I want to finish and lots of new ideas to share with you guys. I’m also excited to start writing again, I really do miss it. This is my favorite part of the day. I can’t say enough how much I love the mornings. I need to wake up early again, I have been so out of it! The best and only way I know to speed things up and feel like my normal self again is to follow my routines everyday and after a few days, things will naturally settle again. I just wanted to catch you guys up, and share an illustration I did a few weeks ago, I have so many plans for my new line of children illustrations. I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the sun. See you tomorrow!

Thanks for reading.

B.

The Same Dilemma

I had a difficult day yesterday. For the past couple years I have been constantly debating the use of watercolor on my work. Watercolor is a popular choice and I am hired to paint with this medium all the time. But here is the problem, even though I do still like to paint I am trying to move away from it. I want to keep a consistent style and if I have to pick a medium to use it is pen and ink. I love the vintage feel and I prefer the black and white look. I also see as a way to stand out a bit, as everyone seems to be painting in watercolor nowadays.

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But as with anything in my life, I have a hard time sticking to it. Yesterday I decided it was time to include watercolor into my portfolio again, I was afraid that leaving it out was a mistake. I spent the entire day adjusting my portfolio page and by the end of the day I had convinced myself not to. I’m not sure if it’s because the work was too old, because I wasn’t proud of it enough or because I went back to my previous points. I’m currently trying to add more color to my ink artwork with photoshop (see photo above), maybe this way I will have enough room to play with just one medium. For now, I’m keeping watercolor out of the website and only available as fine art on my shop or commissioned work.

Thanks for reading.

B.

Business Mind

A fter spending some time with family this weekend I’m ready to take it slow this week. Summer is always a busy season, lots of parties, festivals, trips and such.

From our trip to Connecticut this past weekend

From our trip to Connecticut this past weekend

But this year seems a bit busier, perhaps we said too many yeses. In order to keep up with all we have going on I must stay very organized and productive when I’m actually home. I need to keep up with all home chores and projects as well with all my business tasks. I have not been focused enough on my business and it’s bothering me. As any entrepreneur, when we aren’t fully focused on the business, things start to slow down, and that’s not necessarily bad, but it does require some attention. I need to sit down, look at things for the second half of the year and start taking action. I’m counting on the second half of the year to really push the business so next year we can start slowing down a bit and perhaps grow the family. Life goes by so fast, I don’t know a better way to spend my time besides being fully aware and trying my best. I wish there was more time to work, more time to play and more time to rest.

Thanks for reading.

B.